I have placed the words “fear or faith” over my year. Then I have worked all year on choosing faith. Time and again choosing faith. Situation after situation choosing faith.
Winter is here, and the year is almost halfway past. So it would be tempting to think that the pattern for this year is set. That the everyday humdrum will be your reality for the remainder of this year. And that each day will blur into months of the same.
We have reached the end of our online bookclub and the question Elaine, Amanda and I have for this last post is:
What have we learned about creativity from Big Magic?
For me it can be summed up in two phrases: Take it seriously and hold it lightly. These two phrases seem to be contradictory, but it is important that they both exist side by side in my journey with my creativity.
I love writing. I love the thrill of a phrase that sits perfectly on the page. I love the tap of the keyboard, and the soft scratch of pen on paper. I love the feeling you get when you manage to capture an elusive emotion in a few words. I love those days when I am in the zone, words flowing so fluidly that hours can pass before I look up again.
I place two fresh-baked muffins on the bench, and wait for the smell to waft through the house. Before long two hopeful pairs of eyes greet me, with “Mum, may we please have a muffin?”
The gift of writing to me often feels like that fresh-baked muffin sitting on the bench and I am the hopeful little girl, looking at it.
I just want to ask someone, “May I please … ?”
My question over this year is “fear or faith?” So it was inevitable that for our book club, Amanda, Elaine and I chose Elizabeth Gilbert’s Big Magic. Which has the subtitle, Creative Living Beyond Fear. And it comes of absolutely no surprise to me that when I draw up the schedule “courage” is the first post I have to write.
And of course, this post comes right at a time of great paralysis in the writing of my book.
I am afraid. And as Gilbert says fear’s main purpose is to cause us to stop.
… everyone’s song of fear has the same tedious lyric: “STOP, STOP, STOP, STOP!